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[Sep. 13th, 2009|05:52 pm] |
Groups
To see a group in your dream, refers to the merging of various aspects of your character and personality.
Flood
To dream that you are in a flood, represents your need to release some sexual desires.
To see a gentle flood in your dream, indicates that your worries over a certain matter will soon be swept away.
Alternatively, the dream may indicate that you are the one who is overwhelming others with your demands and strong opinion
Vampire
To see a vampire in your dream, symbolizes seduction and sensuality, as well as fear and death. The vampire represents contrasting images of civilized nobility and aggression/ferocity. It may depict someone in your waking life whose charm may ultimately prove harmful. Deep down inside you know that this person is bad for you, yet you are still drawn to it. Vampires also sometimes relate to decisions about sex and losing your virginity. Alternatively, to see a vampire suggests that you are feeling physically or emotionally drained. The vampire may also be symbolic for someone who is addicted to drugs or someone in an obsessive relationship.
To dream that you are a vampire, signifies that you are sucking in the life energy of others for your own selfish benefit.
Werewolf
To see a werewolf in your dream, indicates that something in your life is not what it seems.It is symbolic of fear, repressed anger, and uncontrollable violence.
Party
To dream that you are at a party, suggests that you need to get out more and enjoy yourself. If the party is bad, then it indicates that you are unsure of your social skills.
Joke
To hear a joke in your dream, signifies that you are doing something that is either pointless or ridiculous. It may also mean a release from tension that had been bothering you.
Heavy
To dream that something is too heavy, symbolizes your burdens, work load and responsibilities. You are carrying too much on your shoulders and need to prioritize. Take a break and lighten up |
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[Jul. 19th, 2009|03:37 am] |
I've come to terms with the fact that I am a depressed person
and I will never be able to move on |
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[Mar. 6th, 2009|01:22 am] |
Its funny, how it can all hit you so fast at the most random times. |
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[Jan. 31st, 2009|07:27 am] |
I am so blank with emotions right now.
I have just been totally abandoned by the one person who is always suppose to be there for me..
mentally, physically abandoned
I'm not sure What I'm suppose to feel right now
sad angry bitter alone depressed understanding? what...
all the right answers seem wrong and all the wrong answers seem right
I've been put through so much constantly having to reprove myself over and over again with nothing to show for it. I have him but I'm not sure what i even mean to him?
nothing seems serious on his part but then i can feel that all change in a heart beat. SO much ups and downs
things were going so perfectly this time, i could feel the change in both of us for the better. our relationship was on a new higher level, or so it seemed.
Half of me feels selfish typing this and thinking what i should feel because i do understand his needs and problems. i get he needs to leave and disappear to make himself happy before anything. but it just hurts being told i need to get over my feelings of being abandoned by you, and then not even getting a goodbye when you spur of the moment pick up and run away.
It makes me question so much when i didn't think i had anything to question...
where do we stand
where do I stand to you
Is this constant struggle to make you happy even worth all the pain you continually put me through
I don't know anymore.
I just need something, some kind of answer from you telling me what i need to hear.
My feelings matter too, I need you too. i just wish you could see that as clearly as i see your needs. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2008|08:19 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blank | ] |
I've never felt so alone and hurt from words like i have last night
I've never been so mind fucked as i have been for the last couple weeks
everyone is an asshole, even those you hold so closely to you
will end up showing their true colors eventually..
i just don't get how my feelings never mean anything?
and i don't know how I've cared for you this long.
"And I wish to feel smaller under your hands,
though you seem satisfied as you slip mine
down your pants.
And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me
While you lift up my shirt after asking politely.
And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans.
Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough
and I swear I'm going to cry.
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough." |
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[Nov. 1st, 2008|10:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  weird | ] |
Slowly the pen touches paper in the guidance of the words that you write.
Memories roll in; of the things you once did
and who you had shared them with is somebody thinking of you.
Did I bother telling you this, with the words that cross teeth and jump lips?
A poor choice of words, in wanting to tell you anything.
But words don't come with ease. They're forever my hurt.
Would it really matter, if you were to count the days left with your hands?
Your focus secure and the loves you left; well
smiles staged in photographs here until... |
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[Oct. 30th, 2008|12:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
Time Travel
To dream about time travel, indicates your wish to escape from your present reality. You want to go back into the past or jump forward to the future to a period where your hopes are realized. This type also represents your romantic nature or your desire to romanticize everything.
If only you saw how intense my dream was.
reading old lj's makes me want to go back a month |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2008|12:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  scared | ] |
I am so so scared..
I cant stop crying, just knowing what will be told to me
I cant do it
I've been wanting to try so hard and now i don't think ill get the chance to fix it
I feel so sick, and my heart has not stopped hurting so badly |
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| i dont know why this didnt post on wednesday |
[Sep. 26th, 2008|11:16 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | excited | ] |
i take back my last entry. everything worked out!
Justin's just got off work and I'm waiting for him to get here so we can have our dinner and a movie date.
it's our "official" 6th month today and its been totally amazing.
we woke up early and when he went to go eat I wrote him this cute letter and placed the picture of us at the beach in a nice picture frame i had bought onto his desk and went back to sleep.
When he came in and saw it he rolled me over and kissed me a bunch and all that cute junk :)!
and now were going out to this Thai restaurant I've been waiting all week to go too
it looks so delicious hahah
after that were going to go see Burn after Reading which looks so funny
I'm fucking excited haha
and i got all dressed up.. did my hair, make-up (eyeshadow..blush..the works) and a cute ass outfit.
awww I'm so happy |
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[Sep. 22nd, 2008|04:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sad | ] |
yup..... its cursed!
even with plans it can never go right.
happy but bummed at the same time :(
i was sooo excited for this night |
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