Dreaming with our hands and dreaming with our minds.

repetitive dream...

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 00:56:17 GMT

Groups
To see a group in your dream, refers to the merging of various aspects of your character and personality.

Flood
To dream that you are in a flood, represents your need to release some sexual desires.
To see a gentle flood in your dream, indicates that your worries over a certain matter will soon be swept away.
Alternatively, the dream may indicate that you are the one who is overwhelming others with your demands and strong opinion

Vampire
To see a vampire in your dream, symbolizes seduction and sensuality, as well as fear and death. The vampire represents contrasting images of civilized nobility and aggression/ferocity. It may depict someone in your waking life whose charm may ultimately prove harmful. Deep down inside you know that this person is bad for you, yet you are still drawn to it. Vampires also sometimes relate to decisions about sex and losing your virginity. Alternatively, to see a vampire suggests that you are feeling physically or emotionally drained. The vampire may also be symbolic for someone who is addicted to drugs or someone in an obsessive relationship.

To dream that you are a vampire, signifies that you are sucking in the life energy of others for your own selfish benefit.

Werewolf
To see a werewolf in your dream, indicates that something in your life is not what it seems.It is symbolic of fear, repressed anger, and uncontrollable violence.

Party
To dream that you are at a party, suggests that you need to get out more and enjoy yourself. If the party is bad, then it indicates that you are unsure of your social skills.

Joke
To hear a joke in your dream, signifies that you are doing something that is either pointless or ridiculous. It may also mean a release from tension that had been bothering you.

Heavy
To dream that something is too heavy, symbolizes your burdens, work load and responsibilities. You are carrying too much on your shoulders and need to prioritize. Take a break and lighten up

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 10:38:30 GMT

I've come to terms with the fact that I am a depressed person

and I will never be able to move on

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 09:30:39 GMT

Its funny, how it can all hit you so fast at the most random times.

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 15:39:57 GMT

I am so blank with emotions right now.

I have just been totally abandoned by the one person who is always suppose to be there for me..
mentally, physically abandoned
I'm not sure What I'm suppose to feel right now
sad angry bitter alone depressed understanding? what...
all the right answers seem wrong and all the wrong answers seem right

I've been put through so much constantly having to reprove myself over and over again with nothing to show for it. I have him but I'm not sure what i even mean to him?
nothing seems serious on his part but then i can feel that all change in a heart beat. SO much ups and downs
things were going so perfectly this time, i could feel the change in both of us for the better. our relationship was on a new higher level, or so it seemed.

Half of me feels selfish typing this and thinking what i should feel because i do understand his needs and problems. i get he needs to leave and disappear to make himself happy before anything. but it just hurts being told i need to get over my feelings of being abandoned by you, and then not even getting a goodbye when you spur of the moment pick up and run away.

It makes me question so much when i didn't think i had anything to question...
where do we stand
where do I stand to you
Is this constant struggle to make you happy even worth all the pain you continually put me through
I don't know anymore.

I just need something, some kind of answer from you telling me what i need to hear.
My feelings matter too, I need you too. i just wish you could see that as clearly as i see your needs.

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 16:25:54 GMT

I've never felt so alone and hurt from words like i have last night
I've never been so mind fucked as i have been for the last couple weeks

everyone is an asshole, even those you hold so closely to you
will end up showing their true colors eventually..

i just don't get how my feelings never mean anything?
and i don't know how I've cared for you this long.

"And I wish to feel smaller under your hands,
though you seem satisfied as you slip mine
down your pants.
And I'm thinkin' about how you care half as much for me
While you lift up my shirt after asking politely.

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans.
Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough
and I swear I'm going to cry.
I'm sick of tryin' to be tough."

Sun, 02 Nov 2008 05:56:15 GMT

Slowly the pen touches paper in the guidance of the words that you write.
Memories roll in; of the things you once did
and who you had shared them with is somebody thinking of you.
Did I bother telling you this, with the words that cross teeth and jump lips?
A poor choice of words, in wanting to tell you anything.
But words don't come with ease. They're forever my hurt.
Would it really matter, if you were to count the days left with your hands?
Your focus secure and the loves you left; well
smiles staged in photographs here until...

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 19:31:39 GMT

Time Travel

To dream about time travel, indicates your wish to escape from your present reality. You want to go back into the past or jump forward to the future to a period where your hopes are realized. This type also represents your romantic nature or your desire to romanticize everything.

If only you saw how intense my dream was.
reading old lj's makes me want to go back a month

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 19:09:23 GMT

I am so so scared..

I cant stop crying, just knowing what will be told to me
I cant do it

I've been wanting to try so hard and now i don't think ill get the chance to fix it
I feel so sick, and my heart has not stopped hurting so badly

i dont know why this didnt post on wednesday

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 18:17:04 GMT

i take back my last entry. everything worked out!
Justin's just got off work and I'm waiting for him to get here so we can have our dinner and a movie date.
it's our "official" 6th month today and its been totally amazing.

we woke up early and when he went to go eat I wrote him this cute letter and placed the picture of us at the beach in a nice picture frame i had bought onto his desk and went back to sleep.
When he came in and saw it he rolled me over and kissed me a bunch and all that cute junk :)!

and now were going out to this Thai restaurant I've been waiting all week to go too
it looks so delicious hahah
after that were going to go see Burn after Reading which looks so funny

I'm fucking excited haha
and i got all dressed up.. did my hair, make-up (eyeshadow..blush..the works) and a cute ass outfit.

awww I'm so happy

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Mon, 22 Sep 2008 23:58:17 GMT

yup..... its cursed!

even with plans it can never go right.
happy but bummed at the same time :(
i was sooo excited for this night

:)

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 23:16:53 GMT

non stop job hunting and apartment searching.
so exciting!

I'm finally at a great place in life

A lot of bad stuffs happened this week but its for the better, im sure.
I wish you good luck in your life and i hope things stay great with him :)

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 23:00:00 GMT

If I ever saw a ghost it'd change the way I think.
I wouldn't gasp for air if ever I did sink.
I wouldn't struggle, I'd just let it all out fast,
and then start living in the past.

step.it.up

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 05:43:21 GMT

i have no more confidence

:(

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 00:12:57 GMT

sometimes, i dont feel good enough

sometimes, i feel i dont give enough

sometimes, it feels like ill never be enough

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Sat, Aug 23, 2008
You may have issues at home to handle, even if you had other ideas for your day. Something may not have gone as expected, setting your schedule on its ear. Don't worry about your previous plans, for they can be changed with a phone call to the right person. Instead, leap into the unknown, without anticipation of where you will land. A bit of uncertainty now is a good thing.

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 20:58:41 GMT

ive decided

my money is now, my money.
I cant spend it on everyone anymore.

time to save save save

realization

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 08:00:55 GMT

wow, this movie REALLY made me realize what i have.

im so greatful for life and love now

and what the hell... this would be my horoscope for today

"You are in a learning phase now, that means adapting to changing circumstances. Today, you are faced with endless possibilities for new beginnings. This may be the chance you have been waiting for to uproot yourself and start over. You are at the center of attention and that is exactly where you want to be."

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 11:05:03 GMT

empty

weird dream

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 21:57:41 GMT

To dream that you are being attacked by someone, signifies questions on your character and the need for you to defend yourself. You are feeling stressed, vulnerable and helpless. You may also be faced with difficult changed in your waking life.

To dream that you are being attacked by an animal, is a warning to be careful with those around you. Take notice on who you know in your waking like that shares and exhibits the same qualities of the animal that attacked you in your dream.

To dream that you kill an attacking animal, signifies that your life will be saved by a stranger.

To dream that you miraculously escape your own execution, signifies that you will overcome your enemies and succeed in gaining wealth.

To dream that you have a cut, suggests that you are being let down or being undermined. Alternatively, it refers to feminine sexuality and feminine attitudes toward sex. In particular, if the cuts are on your legs, then it symbolizes an imbalance. You are unable to stand up for yourself.

To dream that you are walking through a desert, signifies loss and misfortune. You may be suffering from an attack on your reputation. Deserts are also symbolic of barrenness, loneliness and feelings of isolation and hopelessness.

To dream that you are attacked by a tiger, signifies overwhelming gloom and disappointing failures. You may find yourself distressed and tormented by rivals.
To see a tiger in your dream, symbolizes repressed feelings or emotions that frighten you. Alternatively, the tiger represents female sexuality, aggression, and seduction.

To dream that you are at a concert, represents harmony and cooperation in a situation or relationship of your waking life. You are experiencing an uplift in your spirits.

To dream that you are smoking, indicates that you are trying to shield yourself and others against your emotions. You have trouble letting others in.

Dream interpretation

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 21:17:18 GMT

To see or wear a dress in your dream, represents a feminine outlook or feminine perspective on a situation. You are freely expressing your femininity.

To dream that you are wearing a white dress, suggests that you want to appear pure and angelic toward others.

To dream that you or someone is wearing earrings, suggests that you need to listen more carefully and pay attention.

To see your grandparents in your dream, symbolizes love, security, wisdom and protection.

To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self.
To see an old, run-down house in your dream, represents your old beliefs, attitudes and how you used to think or feel. A situation in your current life may be bringing about those same old attitudes and feelings. Alternatively, the old house may symbolize your need to update you mode of thinking.
To dream of a haunted house, signifies unfinished emotional business, related to your childhood family, dead relatives, or repressed memories and feelings.

To see an old ex-boyfriend from childhood in your dream, refers to a freer, less encumbered relationship. The dream servers to bring you back to a time where the responsibilities of adulthood (or marriage) didn't interfere with the spontaneity of romance. You need to recapture the excitement, freedom, and vitality of youth that is lacking in your present relationship.

To see your friends in your dream, signifies aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to integrate these rejected part of yourself. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Additionally, this symbol foretells of happy tidings from them and the arrival of good news.

To see weeds in your dream, signifies that you may have to get rid of some old ideas or negative thoughts in your mind. It is symbolic of neglect. Weeds can also represent friendships or relationships that have gone awry.

To dream that you are at a party, suggests that you need to get out more and enjoy yourself. If the party is bad, then it indicates that you are unsure of your social skills

To see a picture in your dream, symbolizes a mental imprint that remains persistent in your mind. There may be permanence in your actions. Also consider the pun on "picture this" or "seeing the big picture" in a situation.
To see a black and white picture in your dream, indicates that you need to consider opposing views/values. Alternatively, it may denote you need to add more color and pizazz to you life.

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 11:32:22 GMT

no more depressing feelings

out with the old, in with the new!

I'm vowing to myself I will start meeting new people and friends,
hanging out and spending alot of much need time with old friends
i want to find my exciting self again :)
the smart ass, funny, loved to converse with almost anyone and actually liked doing it.
ive missed alot about myself, but immmmm back!

I need to experience more in my lifetime

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 07:24:08 GMT

i can honestly say, ive never cried as hard or as much as i have in the past month

i need to be a stronger person again

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 05:45:21 GMT

DONT FUCK WITH MY HEAD
i cant handle this anymore...

I dont get jealous, i just see how you look at her
and i know i will never be her

thats why ive been crying for the past 3 days.....

Sat, 28 Jun 2008 09:58:27 GMT

Can I ever learn to let go... will i ever be strong enough?
Am i happy enough to stay... am i sad enough to leave??

these have become the thoughts haunting my every waking minute
Every day is a roller coaster.
love shouldnt have to be about second guessing your feelings every other day right?
I dont feel bad for myself because no matter how much i say i know what im doing i dont.
im getting sucked right back into the same continuous circle.
I put so much on the line for this

ALL my friends, family, time, and just life in general .
everything is on pause because im too scared to take the next step for myself or wait to see what happens

how can you fall inlove with such an emotionally detached person ?
any emotion i show is never enough or too much, or it just doesnt matter at all.
i think im finally coming to that point where i cant feel anything
no happiness just all the pain.

i used to be such a strong person.....

but ill miss him too much

pointless junk

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 06:54:36 GMT

I feel like just writing randomness today.

I finally got a job, started making pizza's at domino's last wednesday.. Go me!
found a new nac for making pizzas haha sad to say
Jobs okay, hours...okay, just too many weird people to deal with.

Tonights the first time ive been home in awhile actually.
must say it feels weird, i like the feeling as if im on my own now.
I might get a second job soon just to make some quicker cash since ill be graduating in December.
Ahhh! i cant wait, i love working, and my life at the moment.

My new "this is such a great movie" is now :ATL

Gotta love'em

my new favorite "so amazing" lyrics are:
"We bring ourselves down
And build ourselves up in disappointment
How fragile we are
So fragile we are, we just don't show it
We'll shake up this town
And shoot down the stars for our enjoyment"

I dont know why, but those really just spark some interest.
its a really true statement if you think about it also..

I feel like watching a really good thinking movie or reading.
i think the book im reading is hilarious. not because its funny just because of the reasoning behind me reading it.

life is pretty chill, not to crazy.
and not to boring.
I do miss dancing though
havn't been to a legit dance party in like 3 months?
Growin' up

me to a T

Wed, 28 May 2008 09:10:34 GMT

I suggest if you want to know the inside and out of every part of my personality, you should read..

ENFJ's = The Giver

As an ENFJ, you're primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit into your personal value system. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

ENFJs are people-focused individuals. They live in the world of people possibilities. More so than any other type, they have excellent people skills. They understand and care about people, and have a special talent for bringing out the best in others. ENFJ's main interest in life is giving love, support, and a good time to other people. They are focused on understanding, supporting, and encouraging others. They make things happen for people, and get their best personal satisfaction from this.

Because ENFJ's people skills are so extraordinary, they have the ability to make people do exactly what they want them to do. They get under people's skins and get the reactions that they are seeking. ENFJ's motives are usually unselfish, but ENFJs who have developed less than ideally have been known to use their power over people to manipulate them.

ENFJ's are so externally focused that it's especially important for them to spend time alone. This can be difficult for some ENFJs, because they have the tendency to be hard on themselves and turn to dark thoughts when alone. Consequently, ENFJs might avoid being alone, and fill their lives with activities involving other people. ENFJs tend to define their life's direction and priorities according to other people's needs, and may not be aware of their own needs. It's natural to their personality type that they will tend to place other people's needs above their own, but they need to stay aware of their own needs so that they don't sacrifice themselves in their drive to help others.

ENFJ's tend to be more reserved about exposing themselves than other extraverted types. Although they may have strongly-felt beliefs, they're likely to refrain from expressing them if doing so would interfere with bringing out the best in others. Because their strongest interest lies in being a catalyst of change in other people, they're likely to interact with others on their own level, in a chameleon-like manner, rather than as individuals.

Which is not to say that the ENFJ does not have opinions. ENFJs have definite values and opinions which they're able to express clearly and succinctly. These beliefs will be expressed as long as they're not too personal. ENFJ is in many ways expressive and open, but is more focused on being responsive and supportive of others. When faced with a conflict between a strongly-held value and serving another person's need, they are highly likely to value the other person's needs.

The ENFJ may feel quite lonely even when surrounded by people. This feeling of aloneness may be exacerbated by the tendency to not reveal their true selves.

People love ENFJs. They are fun to be with, and truly understand and love people. They are typically very straight-forward and honest. Usually ENFJs exude a lot of self-confidence, and have a great amount of ability to do many different things. They are generally bright, full of potential, energetic and fast-paced. They are usually good at anything which captures their interest.

ENFJs like for things to be well-organized, and will work hard at maintaining structure and resolving ambiguity. They have a tendency to be fussy, especially with their home environments.

In the work place, ENFJs do well in positions where they deal with people. They are naturals for the social committee. Their uncanny ability to understand people and say just what needs to be said to make them happy makes them naturals for counseling. They enjoy being the center of attention, and do very well in situations where they can inspire and lead others, such as teaching.

ENFJs do not like dealing with impersonal reasoning. They don't understand or appreciate its merit, and will be unhappy in situations where they're forced to deal with logic and facts without any connection to a human element. Living in the world of people possibilities, they enjoy their plans more than their achievements. They get excited about possibilities for the future, but may become easily bored and restless with the present.

ENFJs have a special gift with people, and are basically happy people when they can use that gift to help others. They get their best satisfaction from serving others. Their genuine interest in Humankind and their exceptional intuitive awareness of people makes them able to draw out even the most reserved individuals.

ENFJs have a strong need for close, intimate relationships, and will put forth a lot of effort in creating and maintaining these relationships. They're very loyal and trustworthy once involved in a relationship.

An ENFJ who has not developed their Feeling side may have difficulty making good decisions, and may rely heavily on other people in decision-making processes. If they have not developed their Intuition, they may not be able to see possibilities, and will judge things too quickly based on established value systems or social rules, without really understanding the current situation. An ENFJ who has not found their place in the world is likely to be extremely sensitive to criticism, and to have the tendency to worry excessively and feel guilty. They are also likely to be very manipulative and controling with others.

In general, ENFJs are charming, warm, gracious, creative and diverse individuals with richly developed insights into what makes other people tick. This special ability to see growth potential in others combined with a genuine drive to help people makes the ENFJ a truly valued individual. As giving and caring as the ENFJ is, they need to remember to value their own needs as well as the needs of others.

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